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Juggling With Three Hands May 13, 2012

Posted by nrhatch in Art & Photography, Happiness, Poetry.
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I am finding this Mother’s Day harder to manage than its predecessors.

I’m juggling with 3 hands 
Unable to keep up with balls
Falling faster than they fly.

I want to find the good again.

But I can’t seem to find my way home.

Living is a form of not being sure, not knowing what next or how.  We guess.  We may be wrong, but we take leap after leap in the dark. ~ Agnes De Mille 

Aah . . . that’s (a bit) better!

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1. Andra Watkins - May 13, 2012

Life stops being life when we stop participating. Even when it’s hard. A hug for you today, Nancy.

nrhatch - May 13, 2012

Thanks, Andra. I hesitated to post this UNTIL I found the Agnes De Mille quote. We must hang on to HOPE even when we are dancing about “in the dark.”

2. suzicate - May 13, 2012

Nancy, sometimes it’s difficult to find that tiny flicker in the darkness. Keep looking, and it will lead you home…sometimes home is not the one we’ve held in our heart for so many years…it changes but the love remains the same. Big hugs to you.

nrhatch - May 13, 2012

Thanks, Suzi. We appreciate the warm thoughts and kind wishes coming our way ~ they are flickers of light in the darkness, for sure.

When I’m happy “for no reason” . . . I don’t look for the source of that ease and comfort. I just enjoy it as long as it lasts.

But when I’m “sad” . . . I feel compelled to dissect the feeling instead of allowing it to drift away at the first possible opportunity. I should know better by now. 😛

3. Naomi - May 13, 2012

Lots of love and a warm SA hug to you today, Nancy, XO

nrhatch - May 13, 2012

Thanks, Naomi. The “clouds of doom and despair” are starting to lift . . . with a glimmer of light peering through from the horizon.

Hope you & Dave are having a bright and sunny day in SA!

4. kateshrewsday - May 13, 2012

It is during these storms I always find it most tricky to find the eye, Nancy. Hope you find stillness within 🙂

nrhatch - May 13, 2012

Yesterday, I sat down to meditate. My mind remained agitated by current events and refused to shift into “neutral” to reside in the NOW. All this tilting at windmills is exhausting.

5. 2e0mca - May 13, 2012

Juggling with three hands sums up the tension of the situation. Look for peace in the busiest of places – the main street, the station, the mall. Places where your attention is required just to walk along. It will give you time to think. Time to regain a level playing field from which to find the good.

nrhatch - May 13, 2012

You’ve got a point, Martin. Last night, when we were “out and about,” we both felt better ~ distracted from the negative by the positive energy swirling around the venue.

I need to go for a walk to clear my head. Thanks!

6. Patricia - May 13, 2012

What a difficult season you are in now. But it is just a season not eternity–though it may at times seem like it. Keeping you in thought and prayer.

nrhatch - May 13, 2012

Thanks for your thoughts and prayers, Patricia.

I think the worst of the Doom and Gloom scenarios are dissipating. We just went for a two mile walk to clear our heads. It helped.

Tomorrow, I shall write a more positive and uplifting post.

7. Crowing Crone Joss - May 13, 2012

tough days for you. Holding you in light for relief and strength.

nrhatch - May 13, 2012

Thanks, Joss. When I wrote this, I couldn’t find anything to smile about. That’s changing. I’m letting it go . . . and letting it be.

8. Pocket Perspectives - May 13, 2012

So happy that you’re moving toward letting it go and letting it be…it’s a process that you haven’t had experience with before so it would make sense that there would be some confusion, reacting and learning….but it sounds like you’re developing some positive calmness that will help with those…wishing you well…

nrhatch - May 13, 2012

Having to deal with “too much” at once is a bit like The Perfect Storm . . . we find it more difficult to bob back to the surface before being pushed under again.

But the tide has turned . . . and our smiles have returned. 😀

9. jannatwrites - May 13, 2012

I’m sorry to hear you are struggling right now. It’s hard to keep our balance when things keep coming at us, but I am confident you’ll find your way to “all” better rather than a “bit” better. Hang in there 🙂

On a different subject – I noticed that the Notify me of follow-up comments via email box isn’t checked when I comment here. Did WordPress change the default back, or did you find a way to not have it checked?

nrhatch - May 13, 2012

Too many waves coming at us all at once caused us to lose our balance. We are rebounding now.

I didn’t change my settings, and I did notice that the box is not always checked now on blogs I’ve visited. So, maybe WP is changing the default due to the hue and cry.

10. Jas - May 13, 2012

You have to keep moving and living life Nancy and I am sure things will get easier….

11. sufilight - May 13, 2012

It’s so very human to struggle when life gives us challenges, but, it warms my heart that you also are able to put yourself back into balance. It’s a day to day process, and there will be days of struggle but at least you are not sinking into despair.

nrhatch - May 13, 2012

When we “fall down” . . . we must get back up. I had a tougher time rebounding today than I normally do. But I kept at it until a smile returned to my face. A comment Andra made helped ~ I found myself laughing out loud.

12. eof737 - May 13, 2012

Hang in there! I can relate as I just spent two hours on a frustrating matter and joy is not what I’m feeling. But you know, I came here and thought, “E, swallow your own advice,” and so I will. All will be well with you too! 🙂

nrhatch - May 13, 2012

Yes! Most of the time, I rebound from negative thinking with relative ease. Not so today. But I kept trying until I found myself laughing and smiling again. That did the trick and broke the spell of negativity. We do not laugh because we are happy. We are happy because we laugh.

Hope your frustrating matter becomes less of an issue soon.

13. Three Well Beings - May 13, 2012

Juggling with three hands! I sure do get that one! I’m reading your posts a bit out of order…and I’m betting that for awhile you may go back and forth between doing well and disequilibrium. Life is a series of ups and downs, isn’t it! Debra

nrhatch - May 13, 2012

I’m glad that you (and E) are reading the posts in reverse chronological order . . . I’ve gained perspective and regained balance since first hearing the news on Thursday.

14. sweetdaysundertheoaks - May 14, 2012

Nancy I am happy to read in your last comment that you are regaining your balance. Just know you are in our thoughts.

nrhatch - May 14, 2012

Thanks, Pixie. I prefer the view from HERE. 😀

15. judithhb - May 14, 2012

I don’t know how I missed this one Nancy. Warm hugs all the way from NZ. It is often almost too hard to find the balance and we think that we have too many balls in the air at one time. Take a deep breath and slow down. Hope you are feeling better now 🙂

nrhatch - May 14, 2012

I am feeling much better, Judith. And nothing’s changed . . . except my perspective.

How we relate to the issue IS the issue.

16. bluebee - May 15, 2012

I find hope to be a very strange thing, Nancy – it does spring eternal (with a bit of help for some of us :-))

nrhatch - May 16, 2012

Having hope helps.

17. CMSmith - May 16, 2012

It’s quite difficult to keep one’s spirits up with sadness to carry. I know you will find your happy again.

nrhatch - May 16, 2012

It is . . . but hanging on to sadness until it crowds out all the happy doesn’t improve anything. We lose our buoyancy.

I strive to find things to smile and laugh about every day.


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